21 February 2010

Walking along....sun in my eyes. Singing a silly little song to myself, sometimes happy, sometimes sad. Fish around in jeans pocket....crumbled up crackers...stale. Check my compass....oops, going the wrong direction. What now?

This is the story of my life, and I fancy the general gist of most other Christians' lives as well. Twenty years ago I set out walking....well, no, that's not quite true. The first bit I spent mostly just lying around like a super-adorable blob of baby chub (yes, even I was cute once); after awhile I learned to crawl, and it wasn't until after that that I figured out this whole walking thing. But in a metaphorical sense, I've been trekking through this world for somewhat more than twenty years now, and I can see a sort of pattern emerging.

I start out making more or less of a beeline for the Celestial City. Sometimes the sun shines and the birds sing; other times it rains; every so often an inland tsunami nearly bowls me over. Whatever the case may be, after a certain amount of time I inevitably look up and find that, in the midst of my complacency or self-satisfaction or discontent or discouragement, I've wandered completely off the path and into the jungle. Thankfully, though I am unfaithful, my God is faithful, and He always brings me back. But I'm constantly re-routing. Perpetually discovering new sins and shortcomings, and rediscovering old ones I'd forgotten about or swept under the rug. Always being drawn, slowly but surely, away from my wretched, death-bound self, and into the likeness and glory of the Lord.

So here too, with this blog. I think it's high time to pull out the maps, re-examine the sailing directions, and chart a new course across the open sea, with the wind at our backs, the sun shining in the clear air, and a pistol in every....man's....wait a minute.

In any case, I'm shifting gears. In the past, this blog has ultimately, if subconsciously, served as little more than a showcase for my extremely irregular fits of dubious inspiration. I'd like it to be a bit more than that. It's still just a blog, but my idea is to make a more regular habit of writing on it, with the following objectives:

1. I hope that the musings and confessions of a very small pilgrim on her way to eternity may, in some small way, be used to glorify God, and perhaps to help others see Him a little more clearly. And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2Cor.12:9)

2. It would also be nice if I could somehow learn, through this exercise, to force myself to write often and honestly, whether I particularly feel like it or not. This is said by many to be a beneficial practice, and I believe it.

So here I am--raw, uncivilized, and very, very small. But don't look at me. Look past me to my Savior, believe, and live.

6 comments:

Andringa Family said...

I LOVE IT! I can't wait to read more, you were just added to my favorites! I cannot write, but absolutely love to read and cannot wait to see what ways the Lord can use you through writing as you build your own personal relationship through this, but also as you encourage others!

Katie said...

thanks for the comment on my blog. it's nothing special~ mostly pictures, just a way to keep our family updated on our lives while we're living so far away!

patty said...

Thanks for visiting & commenting on my blog...I responded to you in my comments.
I can see you're a gifted writer and a thinker and in love with Jesus. May you be blessed and encouraged as you grow and write and journey along.
And thank you for being so polite but it's ok if you call me Patty :)

Cherie said...

Oh sweetheart... don't stop just letting it flow though okay! Your goals are beautiful but don't be afraid to just keep on letting it be an outlet. It doesn't always have to have a point. The Holy Spririt uses that stuff too! I love you T. Your heart is gorgeous!

Qtierney said...

Thank you all ever so much for your extremely kind words. If any good comes from this blog (or anything else I do), it's quite obviously not of my own doing -- but I do hope God will see fit to use it in some small way.

p.s. Don't worry too much about my writings always having a point, Mrs. Bootsma. Given the mind from which they spring, there's little fear of that. ;)

juliehof said...

Maybe a third point to writing more?...that it might lead to something more?...say...maybe publishing something someday?

You truly are a gifted writer, Tierney. And that, too, comes from God. He is pleased when you use this talent of yours, I'm sure!

Julie